a lot. I miss my best friend
i’ve never been so scared for my future. the uncertainty in my life right now is starting to get to me. Ive never been confident in my abilities and its hard to think positively and when i am not proud of anything I do. Knowing that what i want to do in life is dependent on my skills is hard to think about when my brain is constantly telling me that I’m shit and that i should just give up. I just want to be able to be proud of what I do and see that I am good enough, but i just can’t.
I have such a problem with moving fast. I from a very early moment get attached. Before i even know how he feels i can’t help but turn him into my everything. And now i have to try and hide my feelings because i don’t know if you want to be with me or just be friends… and I’m to afraid to ask because I’m already attached. fuck my life.